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[bestfuneralever]

how the time does fly huh
these remind me of my late teens/early 20s
Daddy-o gave me the boot on our 18th bday lovely gifter that man truly
paid for an apt a yr at a time but other than nexisities he cut me off compltly

[inthesaferoom]

*Necessities

Fuck sorry I'm still a few years back DON'T ASK jesus christ don't ask

At least he didn't make sure your mom's cancer got worse

Best gift ever amirite

[bestfuneralever]

ya u get me

nah wth does that mean
u can’t drop smthg like that n walk away????

nah
i just nvr knew mine
r we done w/ trauma Olympics now cuz i promise its a game w/ 0 winners

[inthesaferoom]

lol are you okay

Look I'll tell you more but it's like

No he hides this shit from you guys for a reason

[bestfuneralever]

idk w/e

what r u tlkn abt
god i am so fuckin sick of secrets

[inthesaferoom]

I'm not okay so we'll vibe together

Look do you know about Hackett's Quarry

The bears, man

The fucking bears

[bestfuneralever]

sounds good 2 me

i know some???
depends on what ur tlkn abt

u mean the bears that arent fucking bears
bc thyer actullys WEREWOLVES???
THOSE bears????

[inthesaferoom]

yep

Anyway we didn't meet then

It was earlier Nicholas was like idk

I'm barely 24 I was a little into 19 it was like Feb

Nick was uhhh

Good god

14 MAYBE 13

Please excuse me I'm going to eat a sandwich out of annoyance

[bestfuneralever]

not robbing the cradle when u were barely outside of it urself mike lmao

[As if Klaus hasn't done worse, lbr.]

[inthesaferoom]

dude no i didn't date him until later

Much later but okay look

You ever

You know what I just

💬

Look he talks about it

He thinks you guys think he's some perfect thing he has to pretend to be

When he's not

'full moon'

The one time he can actually act like the fuck up he thinks he is

I'm not sure send you some shit you can do whatever you want but

He's not okay and never has been a day of his life

[bestfuneralever]

i dont even believe in perfection
it literally doesnt exist
even nature fucks up
and its literaly NATURAL
its literally in the name
it just goes that way

more secrets i guess
cool i love that
its my favorite theme in my life
if hes talking abt it its not w/ me

send me w/e u want but
if u or nick either 1 really think he's such a good liar and wears such a good mask
that i genuinetly missed the fact that hes not okay and is actly depressed as fuck just for starters
neither of u knows me as well as u think u do

[inthesaferoom]

lol no nobody genuinely thinks that shit

But you know this crap

Depression lies

For me it's

Look don't tell Gavin any of this

ANY OF IT OKAY

I'll do it eventually but on my time my terms

[bestfuneralever]

yeah no shit
so does anxiety n 1billion other fucked up brain shit

ur husband & i dont talk regulaarly bro
u dont hdave 2 worry
hehates me lol

[inthesaferoom]

I told him he was the first person I loved and you know

I actually believed it yeah but

Idk we're not going to dwell on if I'm in denial over people like Emily let's just not lol

But I wasn't talking to Nicholas again then and idk

Maybe if he hadn't hurt me like he did I'd still be there

It's fucking hard actually? He doesn't want to see my fucking face again because I failed to protect him from hurting me

So I just gotta

I'm not interested in any of that anymore but you can change to loving someone platonically you know

Burn bright burn hard turn to fucking ash

[bestfuneralever]

for some reason thst doesnt sirprise me actly
i dont even know why??? but it doesnt idk

at least u still have him in some form or another
could be worse trust me
and at least u had that when u shldve yanno
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like idunno i resent a lot abt how i grew up but not just getting to be a kid is the part that eats me up
ur supposed to be stupid when ur a kid
do dumb stunts as a teenager
lose urself on the way to finding urself in ur 20s
i didnt experience it at all until i was fucking 30 mike
and

[He just... stops there. Seems to have run out of steam, suddenly. There's no hint of his existence on the other side of the phone, not even the text bubbles, for a good, solid 10mins.]

yeah
yeah of course u can change and love some1 platonically
i mean idk
maybe when u & deputy delight get settled here we can revisit the idea??
see abt u n nick... seeing each other properly
ill help if i can
if u want it
idk

[The more he attempts to offer, the smaller he feels. His help is rarely wanted, so he doesn't actually expect much, there, but that kind of increases that second feeling further.]

[inthesaferoom]

what does that even mean

See WHAT properly

[bestfuneralever]

like literally????
idk what ur confusion is
pregnancy brain not a myth huh? Lmao
like see each other
hang out
breathe the same air in the same room

[inthesaferoom]

and why do you sound DEAD inside at that

He likes YOU

Look he can't tolerate me in person it's not happening

You're up, buddy

I fucked him up and a dude I don't even know because the kid had to clean up my blood

Dump my body

Then deal with me waking up???

Btw it wasn't a full moon but Nick still wolfed out so

Something's going on with that and I'm pretty sure it has to do with that Ryan kid so don't trust him like ever

[bestfuneralever]

i dont sound ANYthing im TEXTING

i just meant
u sound sad abt it
i can try to
nah
nvmnd
ur right
its stupid
forget abt it

what
what dude
who r u tlkng abt mike

waking up?
from what Mike
Waking up from dead?
or r u still tryin 2 convince irsrlf its smthg else

I dont even know this ryan kid
&& id rather someone run him over than deal with his stupid little bitch ass

[inthesaferoom]

it's not STUPID it's just

I owe him not to force him into anything

Dylan

Convince myself? Huh?

Yet someone ran over his gf first

[bestfuneralever]

ok

u have died & resurrected
probably multiple times
im like
at least 86% certain at this point

yeah im still confused on that 1 tbh

Mike you sure haven't lmao. Walking mandala effect intensifies

[inthesaferoom]

it's not like I've ever said differently

I've always been clear and precise on this

Mike accidentally gaslighting people b/c his memories are just one big Mandela Effect fff

[bestfuneralever]

ur kidding right
u have LITERALLY so stubbornly told me that isnt it
it was just NEAR death exps
but now u change ur story???

wait not the intentional gaslighting now 😭

[inthesaferoom]

one sec

💬

💬

Okay but talked it over with Ugly and man, Klaus, he agrees

💯

Like

Are you ok

He's worried, man, me too

Cuz you're telling a story that ain't it

😭

[bestfuneralever]

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nu-uh
no way
ur not doin this lmfao
i grew up w/ this shit
hang on

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